So, this is more like a bi-weekly entry…but no one else is counting but me, right? I have to admit, Diary, I was avoiding you. I even started to dislike you a little bit. It’s not you, my sweet Diary. It’s me. Two more weeks of trying, really trying, to follow my rules for losing weight and getting healthy. Guess what? Not a pound lost. Not even an ounce. My weight? Exactly the same. Ugh, ugh, and double ugh!
I even considered breaking up with you at the beginning of this week. I know, Diary, that has to hurt a bit after I worked so hard to get you going. I even joined Facebook for you…I mean, FACEBOOK for Pete sake. Then I read a quote that I myself posted on FB. “What screws us up most in life is the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be.”
At that moment, I realized that it’s not your fault, Diary. It’s not my fault either. It is what it is and the truth of the matter is, I still love you. I love posting recipes, information, and the purging of all my gut retching truths about the challenges of weight loss and a healthy lifestyle. I am not perfect. My 40 year old body is far from perfect. But it’s mine and it’s as young as it will ever be again. I chose to embrace my body and to embrace you, Diary. I will not give up on either of us.
Many years ago, I randomly heard a song and a few lines of it stuck with me. If I am going to be honest, the lyrics in my head are in the voice of Kid Rock rap-singing…not anything close to Comeback Kid by B. Reith. I am nothing if I am not an incredibly resilient person. The lyric from “Comeback Kid” and a lyric from “Fighter” by Christina Aguilera have helped me push through some tough times.
We get knocked down but we get right back up
Keep on comin’ back, we keep on comin’ back for more
There is a fire, burns deep inside us
We’re the comeback kids, kids, we’re the comeback kids – B. Reith
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter – Christina Aguilera
|Goal||Reality||Grade||Change Needed for Next Week|
|Sleep 8 hours||Getting 7-8 hours of zzz’s every night over the past 2 weeks expect for one night of only 6 hours||A-||Continue sleeping at least 7 hours/4 nights per week & 8 hours/3 nights a week|
|Eat Breakfast & No Night Snacking||Got back on track with egg muffins for breakfast BUT did some night snacking on crackers/tortilla chips||B-||No snacking after 7:30 pm unless it’s fruit or veg…be sure to have plenty of containers of cut up veggies|
|Exercise||Gym for cardio 1-2 times a week over the past 2 weeks||C+||Planning to sign-up for a 10K since the half-marathon was a great way to motivate me to get in more cardio. Also, take a class at the gym!|
|Write Down What I Eat||Still not doing that…mental block or do I really just hate it? Yeah, I hate it!||D||Write down 1 day of what I eat…start small to get over the hump. Gotta keep it honest!|
|Weigh Weekly||2 Thursday A.M. weigh-ins = no weight loss…the scale is stuck||B-||Still happy to not be gaining weight, however, after 4 weeks of being at the same weight I need to be more thoughtful about what will help me achieve my goal and get this bus moving|
|Get & Give Support||Found some great info about Curcumin/Tumeric Supplements and my sister-in-law motivated me to pick it up ASAP||A||Post more information on other popular supplements and there efficacy. Also, post about vitamins (request) and Diet plans to that are working for people I know.|
|Stress Management||I looked at the website of a Yoga studio nearby but decided to try to go to a class at my current gym to save some cash||C||Mark the calendar for the yoga class…Monday night at 7pm!|